For the lack of a better term I am using “Mental Issue,” M.I. for short, as a blanket term to describe what we have and deal with on a daily basis. I want to use “Issue” because I don’t want to call it an “Illness.”

Illness, to me anyway, implies that it can be cured, it’s something that you caught and didn’t have before. It’s a part of us, it’s in our DNA, and it’s something we didn’t choose to have but something we live with on a daily basis.

When our M.I. kicks in it’s called “An Episode.” An Episode of what? Are we a sitcom or drama that people sit back and watch? While it may certainly feel this way for non M.I.s, for those of us going through said “episode” it feels more like a storm. Comes on with little to no warning. A lot of huffing and puffing, with loud crashes of thunder. For this reason I will refer to them as Storms and not “Episodes.”

By talking we can begin healing and understanding on both
sides. Ask questions and listen to the answers, don’t judge, don’t speak, just listen.

Friday, April 15, 2016

Hate Me

Hate me
I need you to.
This pain is too great
Each time I hurt you.

I am too weak,
I can not go on.
I want to end it all
Please don’t string me along.

You can not love me
If I hate myself.
You are better off
Holding someone else.

This pain
Will never go away.
It will grow and fester
Each and every day.

It’s only a matter of time
Before you see what I see,
The monster inside,
So please I need you to hate me.

- Max M. Power

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